OK, I want to put out there that I have never used a journal and so never know what to say. Also I would like to point out that I have never written a a tune much less written lyrics. Tonight though I have decided to try my hand at both.

I wrote this out to my mate since I have not been able to see him or talk to him in sometime. It's bad enough that I am pretty much banned from being seen with him because of his parents, but I have been so busy just hanging out with friends and finding odd jobs that the time we normally have to chat gets consumed. I feel sometimes that where he is right now in life is very much my fault, and It makes it worse since there are very few ways for us to get around to see each other. So I have written the lyrics to a song that I have dedicated to him. This is my first time trying this, so I am sorry if it is corny or does not hold to normal song writings. I really don't care though.
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Line 1
I stay up at night, thinking of times that I’ve missed with you,
Trying my hardest to show that my love is still true.
I began with a song, writing out words that I feel when you
Lay down beside me, lost in your eyes of blue.
But the song never ended and I still lay here alone.
Like a wolf on a hillside, crying out his voice to the great unknown.
So I keep singing along waiting to see a wolf with a yellow hue.


Chorus 1
All I want in the world it seems I just can’t have,
Knowing I can’t hold you close is what drives me mad.
And late night I lay here wishing for you,
Hoping your dreams are filled with a time that we both knew.


Line 2
Sitting here I found a picture of us that you once drew,
Portraying the scene of that time at my house when I first met you.
And as I went on I found more pictures how we once were.
Laying there side by side me holding you close and you playing with my head fur.
Yet I sit here alone, looking at where we are from where we’ve been.
Wondering why it came that I am far from you again.


Chorus 2
All I wanted in the world it seems I just can’t grasp.
Watching as time flies by, never able to let go of that past.
And late at night I lay here dreaming of only you.
Waiting the moment when I look to the dawn and see it all coming true.


I Stay up at night, counting the moments from you. . . . .
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Sean, I still love you and nothing can change that.